It's a ...

Ok, so I haven't really posted in quite some time. I've been posting weekly updates so I can look back on how my pregnancy progressed and to keep my readers in the know, but I haven't posted anything of real value.

I think part of me has been hesitant to post anything more than an update because I'm a worrier by nature, and I had vowed to maintain a more positive outlook on this blog. I can honestly say that by the time each new doctor's appointment comes around, I'm once again in a dither about whether or not things are ok. I don't know why I'm so anxious. It could be that I had a miscarriage or it could be that I'm concerned about my age. I'm sure those things factor into my anxiety. But I like to think my anxiety (for lack of a better word) is what proves I was meant to be a mom - I just really CARE.

That's not to say that others who aren't as highstrung as I am don't care about their babies. It's just that I've always been the person in my family to fix things, to check up and make sure everyone was ok. It's hard to turn that off now, especially now that I'm actually going to have a little one of my own to really watch out for.

I don't know. I can't explain it. I'm not even going to try anymore. I'm just going to embrace that this is who I am and that I'm going to do my best to be a loving, understanding and responsible mother.

Ok, so on to the most important news of the day - IT'S A BOY!!!

Hubby & I found out at our anatomy scan yesterday. The tech was measuring all the baby's parts and when she got to the baby's bottom, we asked if she could tell what we were having. The baby's legs were locked tight together and she said, "the baby's not really cooperating."

It was like the baby heard her and, on cue, spread those legs wide and there it was. The tech just turned to us and said, "I don't have to tell you what that is, do I?" I looked over at Hubby and he had the slyest grin I've ever seen. He didn't say a word, just grinned. I said our first purchase should be a trench coat cuz this kid's gonna be a flasher. LOL!!

I'm so excited that we're having a boy. I would have been happy with either but having a boy means that we'll have someone to carry on the family name. Hubby is the only boy so it would have ended with him if we didn't have a son. Exciting!

Now we just have to agree on a name. UGH!!